fly like a bird, take to the sky, i need you now lord, carry me high, don't let the word break me tonight, i need the strength of you by my side

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

He's the man!!

was having lunch with steven, when his flocks of friends came by and told us to watch the webcast of math lecture yesterday. 'coz someone had turned the LT into the ground for love confession.

watched the webcast after doing the online lab..he's got the guts, even asked the lecturer to show his power point presentation with the name of the girl and a line:"take ma hand"..he too, presented a bouquet of flowers to the girl, creating a short buzz.

the end of the story isn't that romantic anw, heard the guy was rejected,but he's not from engine fac..i doubt too hu's got the guts to do that frm engine. we were speculating which fac is the guy from, most prob is from business.here's ma analogy.

so here are the different scenerios of love confession by the guys from different faculty:
from science physics dept, the guy would make a heart shape out of the carbon atoms since it's the most stable elements on earth, juz like his love for her...but the girl could only see that from the mega zooming microscope and says:"make me an diamond"
chance of success: 60%
from science chemistry dept, the guy would most probably spending his day in the lab making drugs!! ok, for those who got ma joke, have a good laughter..especially ant.
chance of success: 0%
from science math dept, the guy may be trying very hard to calculate his chance of success using normal distribution, fourier series, Lanplace transformation stoke's therom and concludes that as his life approaches death, taking limit of his love, performing integration over the girl, the result is infinity. hey dude, dun use jargon, juz say ya love will last forever...
chance of success: 80%
from school of medecine, the guy would walk up to the girl, drawing out scapler and slashing open his chest, taking out his heart and saying:"the impulse is because of you".ok, that's a failure...a girl will never be impressed by a dead man
chance of success: 10%
from school of business, he would most probably take it as an business project.making power point slides to impress the girl..ok it's proven failure by the guy yesterday..but should not undermine his courage for doing that,maybe juz a wrong target for him..shapen up ya love sensitivity!
chance of success: 50%
from school of law, he would stare into the eyes of that girl, and spouts out:"you have the right to remain silent, whatever you say would be taken as the testimony for the fact that you love me...love me or i will sue u" his reward would be a big slap..
chance of success: 20%
from engine faculty, as u all know, engineers are quite shy. so most prob he would make use of C++ programming and wiring that into the robot...he would remote control the robot to present the flower to the girl. well if rejected, self detonation, kamekazi!!
chance of success:-100%

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Agenda

1 finish the SS assignment
2 clear the SS reading
3 try to understand the previous chapter of math
4 pratice, ya i mean pratice
5 if i could do agenda NO.3, i nid to redo the math tut since i copied most
6 update the formula list(find it first)
7 another critique paper on firday, sigh~
8 pick ma working station
9 keep up jogging
10 buy the Eminem's album
11 clean up ma desk..it's been invaded by sch work
12 if i dont do agenda NO.9, try not to slp too much during weekend then
13 sleep before 2am, weekend exception.
14 stop eatting junk food and stop drowning maself in coke
15 acquire the technique of reading notes while riding bus without falling aslp
16 be nice to everyone
17 try to be mean if mean pple are mean to me
18 if i fail NO.17, ok..juz walk away
19 don't be an idiot
20 talk to God, i know He's listening

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Long Week End

king, wat u hiding frm? Posted by Hello


i guess today is juz not ma day, lost ma pencil case, yeah the whole case is gone with the pens that i had, especially the G2-0.5 that had accompanied me for three years, the one i used in Alevel and a lucky chain that was given to me frm ma orientation group member, haiz that's the most hurting part. i'd thot nobody would wan to take that OP pencil case, and ma friend told me that if the auntie found anything, she would juz put it at the front of the LT...guess someone found it be4 auntie

well, it wont spoil ma day, coz it cant even create any ripple in ma world.

went to meet king for dinner at J8..we dun nid any fancy food, we juz wan our all-time favourite qiu lian ban mian. i guess it's more than food to us, it means memory. but before that, we got some prob finding each other...even with the aid of technology, telling each other's locations over the phone, it only lead to even more confusion(king ar, i thot u got navigation training? how come ya sense of direction still so lousy?haha) anw, simply menu for the dinner tonite, two bowls of qiu lian, one upsized. while eatting, of coz we will talk cock, which we always do when eatting qiu lian. king always likes to act secrective, dun wan to tell me what is his source of information on who & who frm aj broke up, Ms tan got a baby girl, etc..simply saying he's got a "crystal ball", oh yeah, i nv noe king's ball is crystal..i wonder how it looks like

and king is good loh, saw a pretty girl nv tell me...until i saw and i pointed out to him then he nodded his head and gave me a perverted smile saying:" yeah, i saw ready", what kinda friend iz that?? i was too focusing on the mee mah, king next time muz tell me k? anw, that girl is frm RJ first year, coz she was wearing the orientation tshirt, plus a pair of blue shorts(really short but not tight). but of coz not her shorts caught our attention, she's quite outstanding among a bunch of guys. not bad looking, her eyes are abit similiar to Maggie-Q, she's juz beyond description, pretty is juz such a dwarf word to describe her,haha...anw, juz a short buzz between two of us, we were soon attracted back to our mee. why all the pretty girls are in RJ??so not fair...of coz AJ oso got, but less in quantity.(phew~muz make some balance)..but when we were walking into J8, we saw the girl is with a guy apparently from RJ oso and most probably frm RI, he was the one bursted the bubble floating above our heads...haha, but king ar, i stil think he's the girl's bro or cousin..i thk la..haha to comfort u, ma friend..

anw, we took a nice slow walk in J8, with big gulps of coke in hands. and of coz to buy new sets of stationary for maself. i saw this cartoonish eraser and had a urge to buy it coz i used to have that kinda eraser in ma pencil box when i was a kiddo. when king saw me picking up that colorful monkey eraser, he virtually kept a distance frm me, haha generation gap izit? but in the end i still paid heed to king's advice, bought the white, dull and so-unfriendly-looking eraser...next time, dun stop me from buying colorful eraser k?i now regret liao...haha and bought another OP pencil case...

btw, king u dun look gay at all, really..haha

Saturday, March 19, 2005

i'm sorry...

confusion Posted by Hello


i m sorry that i cant pretend, i m sorry that i would hesitate, i m sorry that i cant let go, i m sorry that i lost maself, i m sorry that i put u down, i m sorry that i don't live up ma dream, i m sorry that i mess up everything, i m sorry that i make u sad, i m sorry that i don't see the fact, i m sorry that i haf to go, i m sorry that i desert ma soul, i m sorry that i drift away, i m sorry that i cant be saved, i m sorry that i haf to put up smile, i m sorry that i waste ya time, i m sorry that i m such a fool...if i have to be one.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

*longest day*

again, thursday is here.

got 5 hours long break after the engineering economic lecture which ended at 10am. thanks to my CTW tutor, the usual 3 hours break on thursday was extended to a daunting 5 hours, but only for today. planned last night to fully utilise the hours, but some minor mistakes disrupt the flow of the day.

wan to do ma IE tutorial, but i forgot to bring ma text book which contians that vital interest table essential for ma calculation. holy cow! stupid me, i was planning to bring that bulky book to sch today, but in the morning i changed ma mind coz it's kinda heavy to get it loaded in ma bag.(u know, i got this symptom called morning blue every day, and it's been years..) only spending time reading the notes and the tut questions. thinking of back up plan which may help to minimise the wastage of time. went to the vitnam cafe at the engine block, it's a paradise to me in the crammed, suffocating, suppressive and dead environment of the engine faculty. ordered coffee, and pick a light-fested seat at the quiet corner, doing ma singapore study reading. the first hour was surprisingly constructive and effective, managed to finish reading the dreadfully lengthy documents which i doubt any psychologically rationale human beings would wan to read. more amazingly, i wrote down notes!!

anw, it only lasted for an hour, or fifty something minutes to be exact.

how fast can a human being switch mode? the ans to that is instaneous whenever he/she wants to. right after putting down ma pen, i heard whisper at ma right ear:" take a break, read the magazines, sip ya coffee and day dream abit"

another whisper appeared at ma left ear:" continue working, read the notes, wash ya face!!" the two voices were arguing in ma brain, creating excessive fluctuation in ma already-flatten brain wave, i need to make a choice, for good.

well, u know what i picked...

browsing the I magazine, looking at the greens outside the window, enjoying the warm sunlight filtered through the glass and sipping the cold coffee, what more can i asked for? i was not completely slacking anyway, cant really appreciate the stories in the magazine, made me switch back to ma notes, haa guess lousy stories are more effective than self-decipline.

another hour flew by, with no trace left...

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

synonyms

WOMEN'S ENGLISH:
>
>1. Yes = No
>
>2. No = Yes
>
>3. Maybe = No
>
>4. We need = I want..
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>5. I am sorry = you'll be sorry
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>6. We need to talk = You're in trouble
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>7. Sure, go ahead = You better not
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>8. Do what you want = You will pay for this later
>
>9. I am not upset = Of course I am upset, you moron!
>
>10. You're certainly attentive tonight = Is sex all you ever think about?
>
>----------------------------------------------------------------------------
>-------------
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>MEN'S ENGLISH:
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>1. I am hungry = I am hungry
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>2. I am sleepy = I am sleepy
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>3. I am tired = I am tired
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>4. Nice dress = Nice cleavage!
>
>5. I love you = Let's have sex now
>
>6. I am bored = Do you want to have sex?
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>7. May I have this dance? = I'd like to have sex with you
>
>8. Can I call you sometime? = I'd like to have sex with you
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>9. Do you want to go to a movie? = I'd like to have sex with you
>
>10. Can I take you out to dinner? = I'd like to have sex with you
>
>11. I don't think those shoes go with that outfit = I'm gay
>

Sunday, March 13, 2005

*lovely sunday*

趁早 (2005版) by 张宇


到後來才發現愛你是一種習慣
我學會和你說一樣的謊
你總是要我在你身旁
說幸福該是什麼模樣
你給我的天堂 其實是一片荒涼
要是我早可以和你一刀兩斷
我們就不必在愛裡勉強
可是我真的不夠勇敢
總為你忐忑為你心軟
畢竟相愛一場 不要誰心裡帶著傷
我可以永遠笑著 扮演你的配角
在你的背後自己煎熬
如果你不想要 想退出要趁早
我沒有非要一起到老
我可以不問感覺 繼續為愛討好
冷眼的看著你的驕傲
若有情太難了 想別戀要趁早
就算迷戀你的擁抱 忘了就好

(愛已至此怎樣的說法都能成為理由
我在這樣的愛情裡看見的 是我們的軟弱)

happened to listen to this song on MTV, was quite amazed by the lyrics, but too bad i din find out who wrote it...the original singer is A-mei.

back aching still, need to finish the work that i was stuck at...it's getting tougher, but think it this way, it's all coming to an end too.

show me wacha got...and i will show ya wat i got...

Friday, March 11, 2005

love for Basketball

Been studying in campus for a sem ready, but did not really go to the basketball courts, at most juz passed by, and envying those guys playing..din find ball-mates at all

finally, that is history.

steven invited me to the bball club in sch, after so many days doing research and project, it always feels great to accompany ya friends to do some physical training, to vent ya accumulated frustration over the past few weeks. made some new friends there, all the hardcore basketballers, some of them are fairly good players. especially got this guy who shares similar style as weiloong, but of coz less teasing, and less act cool, and less crappy..much less, he's good lad, organising offence on the court, to me that's quite a sign of good player.

althou ma neck was aching, but hu cares...stretching arms and legs, ready for the game, those guys looked tough, so i expected rough games. maybe din warm up enough, steven and i were not really ready for those guys who were already burning...after i got a shot in, we stopped scoring and it became the show for the opponents, badly trashed...but there's always a come back..the third game, we defeated the two tough teams, crack the tough nuts but subsequently lost to the less threatening team, most probably due to exhaustion among our guys, at least i was quite exhausted after running loops and loops to get rid of the defence from the previous two teams. nevertheless we are proud of each other for putting up good offence against them, despite our defence isn't that impressive.

after a short break, we re-teamed and now, steven is ma enemy...

well, din really get to face off with steven, coz they made a bloody nerd to man-mark me...what the heck is that?! all the rest of them can switch defence, only i would be "glued" by this guy, and he is a "super glue"...the glue man will not juz defend me, he merely leaned against me whenever i was on the move or even i stood still, and he even hug me when i got the ball!! haf to make several calls of foul, that really pissed me off...but, he's a good runner. ma initial intention was to out-run him, in the end, he out-ran me..i was gasping for air, and he still leaned against me!!! there's a litmit to ma tolerance, i told him in the face"will u f**k off?"...hmm, that was not really effective, coz he then only left me alone when i was gasping for air...never mind, i would find ma way to get rid of him...making sprints and abrupt stops, i got rid of him sometimes and easy shots were made, his only flaw in the footing was putting too much momentum in one direction, so when i "emergency brake" he was not able to react in time physically, there u go! but the price for that is a crampped leg and stiff muscle at the back...

was waiting for bus at 9pm, holding ma ball-shoes by the shoe laces...quite a wired sight i guess. riding home with qing zhang, our aj senior. felt so freshed, after sweating and all that.
it's juz a beginning...

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Proud of me..

yeah..by now, finally finish ma singapore study assignment after doing so many research and paid several visits to the library(so unlike me)...

here is the full text..read it if u cant sleep, i m sure it's much more effective than sleeping pills...

As most of people would have thought, the starting point of the history of the small island at the south end of the Malay Peninsula, which is now known as the republic of Singapore, is on that fateful day of 28 January 1819. However in the view of history, the debate over that starting point has never ceased to exist. If we refer to the ancient Singapore that is beyond 1819, the Sejarah Melayu or Malay Annuals, a historical account of myth that exists on the land for centuries, would declare the founder of Singapore as Sri Tri Buana or Sang Nila Utama, also known as Iskander to the Malays. If we refer to the founder of the colonial Singapore, the answer to that would be undeniably “Raffles”. In the articles “Temasik and Singapura: An Extract from the Malay Annuals” and “Stamford Raffles-The Man” both accounts the founding of Singapore in great detail but in different timeline. Would there be any cross over between the two time lines that striking similarity occurs or would there be any similar interest shared between Sri Tri Buana and Stamford Raffles? The answer to those questions will then be important for the understanding of Singapore and its history.

Although Sejarah Melayu consists of myths that could not taken into account for historical analysis, nevertheless certain facts presented in the annual could still be verified through archeological excavation and the ancient documents from secondary sources. However the motive behind the decision for setting up a settlement on this island still remains unclear. The name of Singapura is popularly attributed to the Sri Tri Buana, after seeing a strange animal running into the jungle. He was told the animals could be a singa, or lion. In the context of Sejarah Melayu, it barely mentions the why such a decision is made but presents it as a random event that occurs when Sri Tri Buana paid a visit to the island.

If we read more critically into history, we will soon realize that it’s not a random event. Despite Singapore was not a very important port during the time, it’s a good place harboring the Malay rulers on the run from regional political intrigues. This is the case for Sri Tri Buana. From the declining Srivijiaya kingdom (7-11th century), Sri Tri Buana “refused to acknowledge the overlordship of the Majapahits (1294-early 16th century A.D.) in java”, thus he chose to run away to keep himself alive. Hence the founding of Singapore by Sri Tri Buana is not a fairy-tale like story written in Sejarah Melayu. To him, Singapore is a strategic base to continue his ruling. Singapore did flourish as a city as Sejarah Melayu pointed out “ Singapura became a great city, to which foreigners resorted in great numbers so that the fame of the city and its greatness spread throughout the world.” This can be verified from secondary sources such as Tao Yi Tchih Lueh that talks about the war between Temasek and Siam in 1330s. This helps to trace the time line back to the possible beginning of founding of Singapore. The account of Sejarah Melayu only presents parts of the entire geopolitical situation during the time.

In 18th and 19th centuries, European powers were competing with each other in the South East Asia for greater profit. Raffles was appointed to find a trading base in the region to secure the British trading route to China. This leads to the founding of the colonial Singapore and Stamford Raffles is commemorated by various road and place names, and institutions. He is a visionary and dedicated man as portrayed in the article “ Stamford Raffles-The Man”. However, despite all his contribution in the founding of Singapore, I feel that his role should be reassessed to give a more holistic picture of the history.

In the article, Raffles is said to already have Singapore in mind as a British trading station, despite Farquhar suggested to survey Carimon Island. His visionary insight is finally paid off by the success of Singapore. However, from the other sources his discovery of Singapore is rather filed as a coincidence than his long vision into future. According to Dr John Crawfurd, who first visited Singapore in February 1822 and then become the second Resident, “Singapore did not occur to either to Raffles or anyone else at first”. After Raffles found the Carimon Island unsuitable, his hydrographer, Captain Daniel Ross pointed out to Raffles on 27 January 1819 that a spot at the mouth of Johor river he considered more eligible than Carimon, and the next day became a historic meeting between Raffles and Temenggong on this spot that is known as Singapoura. “For the first time, the advantages and superiority of its locality presented themselves”(Kuala Lumpur: Oxford Univ. Press repr. 1971). Hence I feel that Raffles is more of a great leader with humble and faithful subordinates rather than a visionary strategist, and the writer of “Stamford Raffles-The Man” painted a highly favorable picture of Raffles.

Raffles is much honored as the founder and architect of the British “factory” in Singapore. He is indeed a great man for whom Singapore would never have existed. However too much credit has been given to him such that contributions by other early residents of Singapore are made trivial. The success of Singapore is not on the shoulder of Raffles alone. The contribution by the first two British residents Farquhar and Crawford along with the known Malay, Arab, Bugis, Chinese, Indian, and European notables, and the numberless, unnamed pioneering settlers who worked diligently to build up the prosperity of the island. However, their contributions seemed unaccounted for in the history, and Raffles earned most respect. In fact, the dispute over who is the real founder of Singapore continues aboard. Farquhar after his dismissal claimed that he was at least a co-founder, and on his tombstone in Perth, Scotland, it is inscribed that he “founded” the settlement of Singapore! Crawford is the man made Singapore British, by signing the Anglo-Malay treaty of August 1824 with Sultan Hussein and Temenggong, turning Singapore into a British possession. Singaporeans may have only remembered the name “Raffles” and the names like “Farquhar” and “Crawford” are fading away despite their equally important contribution to the success of Singapore during the colonial times.

In conclusion, the social memory shapes how the history we view. Form the readings, we see how it works in defining Singapore. Undeniably, controversy still remains and debates will continue, but only through the process of scrutinizing those social memories and other sources of information, we will then get a more holistic view of history of Singapore. The white statue of Raffles, beside the Parliament House, by the Singapore river, will remain tall and inspiring to the people living on this land, leaving us with questions how Singapore has come to what she is today.

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

bush fire.

bushfire aftermath Posted by Hello


paid a visit to the psychology dept to do ma research, i never noe until today that standing at the corridor of the psychology dept building can actually see the whole hill top. a bushfire broke out during chinese new year, turned the green into what it's now...