fly like a bird, take to the sky, i need you now lord, carry me high, don't let the word break me tonight, i need the strength of you by my side

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

are you java?

stared at the computer screen for 3 hours with cw last friday, trying to figure out how on earth the serialization method is used in java and yielded nothing...

today, any possible progress of the computing project seems stagnant, but just two hours ago, breakthrough came into light and left me speechless(happily though)...

from qz, it seems serialization is only needed to implement once in the user interface and just pass in the reference of the control centre, it automatically stores all other references, which in total we have 7 to handle...which means the same piece of code of serialization only need to be written once in UI, instead of writing 7 times in separate locations of the program(which we tried be4 and gave up halfway)

woah...that saves alot, java has such a powerful feature, it's really remarkable speaking to java newbies like me...so, i decided that "java" is now synonym of "powerful" in my dictionary..

so dont frown if u hear me saying "u are so java!" i m only complementing you...

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

女人该偷偷知道的十条

一:爱人就是爱人,只要去爱,不要拿来比较,不要老说别人的老公如何如何好,别数落他没出息,你是他最亲密的人,你还这么说他,好象不太应该,对大多数男人来说,赞赏和鼓励比辱骂更能让他有奋斗的力量。何况,爱他还忍心伤害他吗?爱他一定要尊重他,再生气也不可以出口伤人,言语的伤口有时一生都在流血的。身体的伤害很容易治愈,精神的伤害后果是可怕的。

二:不可以整天追问对方爱不爱你。他若真爱你,你不必问;他若不爱你,他已做了你的丈夫,难道他会对自己的妻子明确地承认吗?除非他不想要这段婚姻了。他对你的爱,用心去体会就品味出来了。爱是做出来的,不是说出来的。老挂在口头上不落到实际的爱太苍白无力,婚姻是现实的,生活是现实的,风花雪月的恋爱,不是真实的生活。婚姻是从柴米油盐中感受爱的。

三:不要摆脸色给对方看,一个生气的女人是很丑陋的。他工作已有许多压力,没有义务回家还要看你的脸色哄你开心。对方性格上会有缺点,生活细节会与你不同,令你不满意,但他怎么可能是完美的,在你面前,他要放下面具,做回自己,做个普通人。宽容是做人和对待婚姻应有的态度。容忍和体谅对方,

四:男人对自己的尊严看得比什么都重要,不管在私下他有多么宠爱你,多么怕你。在人前一定要给足对方面子,让他做天不怕地不怕老婆更不怕的他口中的顶天立地的男子汉,他应该不大会喜欢朋友们开玩笑取笑他怕老婆。除非他有足够的强大后盾和高高在上的身份,可是,我们大多是普通人呀。

五:男人大多喜欢吹牛,你别戳破他的这个小把戏,他们这么样可以让自己得到一点力量,找到一点自信,好继续人生征程下面的拼搏。虚拟的成就感能让他心情明朗起来不好吗?没人喜欢自己一无所是。和妻子在一起,***是身体的放纵,谈话是心灵的放纵,只要爱人得到快乐,轻松一点装傻附合他一下不是很好吗?

六:男人骨子里全都喜欢美女,看到美女会目不转睛或回头行注目礼,你别认为他不爱你,也别认为他好色,爱看美女是男人的本能,与品格无关。何况,爱美知心人皆有之。你难道没偷看过帅哥吗?

七:不要太虚荣,不要太功利,物质的追求是无止境的,你是活自己,不是活给别人看的,鞋子合不合脚只有自个知道,舒服最重要,其它的都是装饰,是虚设。何况俗话说:千金易得,有情郎难寻。真爱无价,情义无价

八:男人为何喜欢温柔的女人,因为他们内心很脆弱,不象外表般坚强,他们需要妻子的柔情似水,柔声细语,轻怜蜜爱。知要你有温雅如兰的外表和气质,有吐气如兰的声音,有含情脉脉的眼波,他们很容易化百炼钢为绕指柔的,温瑞安有本书叫《温柔一刀》,温柔,可以杀死一个男人的,对于男人,那是致命的诱惑。

九:家庭永远是第一,我们固然要对工作负责,要有职业道德,要从工作中得到乐趣,但不要做工作的奴隶,我们工作是为了更快乐地和家人在一起,享受生活,享受生命很重要。

十:爱人的父母就是自己的父母,将心比心,爱屋及屋,老吾老以及人之老,只要内心深处真正感到这就是我自己的父母,心理上对老人依恋亲密,老人回感受到这份真心的。何况,人老了很象孩子,只要象哄孩子般哄老人开心就好了。我们自己也有老的一天

sigh~, this is my monday, stuck at school again, doing project...i enjoy the process of solving those problems, but it seems the problems are not ending...i told myself to hang in there, hang in till the last moment that finally declares the end of my sanity...read the above from a friend's blog, far away she's in England, at least it brightens my day before it ends sadly...

guys, live on...

Saturday, March 25, 2006

These days...

reached home again at mid-night from sch...doing that java project in the 24 hour com-lab, believe that? nus's got TWO 24 hour com-lab at SOC, and only ONE 24 hour convenient store located at the middle of no where... stuck there for two friday nights, cracking head to do some proper coding, but well, everyone in the proj group is working hard for it, at least we are seeing real codes now, just praying that compliation will not have fatal problems and the whole program goes crashed..

special thanks to zc, spending so much time googling for correct implementation of enumeration function, though there was a little bit of information overloaded, we worked it out in the end; and perhaps solved another problem of how to keep track of the time in the program using GregorianCalendar, yeah, finally seeing some light and don't put it out...

one project down today..eh i meant yesterday, which was just an hour back, two more to go...HFE presentaion coming in a week, and the followed by the programming presentation, the next two weeks will be like rollercoaster ride, no turning back...

and for that one who dont give a shit to our HFE project, well, i thank you...for you've just arose my spirit to push further. you know what? lip-service will not save ya ass, if talking is all you know; and if you think words could bring me down tonight, then save ya energy for ya work, the shit out of ya throat is harmless; ya've picked a war with me, and i will make sure i bring you down.

zc, u noe who i m referring to? ha.ha, yeah let's do it, and show the scumbag who's doing it right

Monday, March 20, 2006

in HIS name, forgive me

i have to redeem my sins...i have to...how many times i knee down infront of the cross that Jesus died, pleading for forgiveness, and i know his blood washed away my sins even before my existence in his land was made real...make me the kinda person Lord you want me to be, make me a better man.

this is it, tonight i repent

Thursday, March 16, 2006

i wan to say thank you

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thank you all guys, i cant be more appreciative than this...even that idiotic-as-usual weiloong appeared, that's touching if not disastrous for someone, like king? haha, everyone's talking abt king's new hair style tonight, i meant everyone appeared tonight!! instead of the usual horizontal curly S-shape of his hair, today is VERTICAL, thanks man, that's an eye opener for me and the rest...

well, had dinner with 06 trouble-makers at cafe cartel @ PS...and as usual, recalling those silly and sweet days of JC, laughing like a bunch of idiots( we are idiots anyway, just that ant is not here) ...and just a gentle re-cap of why serangoon is called serangoon by loong, well, his story is insanely illogical, but since he's trying to make fun of king just like the old days, it simply triggers everyone into a state of frenzy spastic facial movements, yeah loong, i shall say that's really funny, utterly illogical but plainly funny...

and thanks for the book > by joshua harris...yes i need book that could guide me to look at relationships from a biblical view, i like wat this book says"it's about dating with a purpose" and "how do u find a lifetime partner in a way that's God-centered, not self-centered", well, it's abit early for me to start looking for a lifetime partner, anyway, thanks lenny for choosing this book for me...U NOE WAT I M THINKING, bro! haha, so, girls dont be surprised if u find out that geyun is so much more romantic, God makes me that way(oops, did i push too far?)

thank you all, appreciate it lots...lenny, dan, weiloong, weihong, the King(got sun-tanned because flying too close to the sun accidentally, haha) tingwei, chester...God bless you all, although ant is not here, God bless u too

i wan to say thank you

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this is the enlargement of the left hand corner...i cant stop laughing...i must say, good job dan, good job...hahaha

i wan to say thank you

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alright, u guys gave me a BBC(big big card)...thx guys, appreciate it alot! so kindly pay ya attention to the left hand corner to the goose or duck look alike creature that's holding all those bears...remind ya of anyone?

Saturday, March 11, 2006

to my grandpa

I had the same dream again last night,
my grandpa in his uniform/appeared in the light, but
he's gone heaven back to 10 years time, and that was a bitter winter in 1995,
he seemed telling me to do this right, and
i m gonna speak for him in this rhyme.

time flies back to 1941,
my grandpa lived northern side mainland, just a few miles from the river bank,
a sunny afternoon in the spring season, the japs came looking for chinese militant and
they rounded up innocent/frightened peasants and
all they could see were sharp bayonets.

the japs thought could get them talk but
they were too scared to even speak a word,
and then the japs soliders received their order,
and they started to open fire,
yeah, listen it right, to the civilians they pulled the trigger,
no villiagers escaped that massacre, and their bodies were even burnt and dumpped into river.

my grandpa saw that happening but,
he's powerless to do anything,
he wiped tear away and packed his bag,
he's choiceless but/ got to find a way out fast
on his feet he's heading south,
eventually, he joined the army,
his sarge asked him:" who is ya enemy?" and
he recalled what happened in the villiage,
he shouted back:"it's the son of bitch japanese!"

he grew so fast from a boy to man, he couldn't forget that eternal pain,
he joined the battle in the frontline and,
his comrades thought he's outta his mind,
then, the troop encoutered japs in a small town,
the mortars fired shook the ground.
his sarge lead them charging/ bullets flying/ children cying/ soliders were shot and collapsing
their blood soaked the soil, and
they were fighting in the age of turmoil.
these people were said to fight for their country, but
at the back of they mind, they just want their families saved.

the battle was won, but losta fine men gone, even the sarge died in my grandpa's arm.
he was fortunate to have survived,
when the war ended august 1945,
now i m sitting back/relax
unaware of what happened in the past,
it's such a shame, and shame will last,
my grandpa had fought in the war, but he had never felt proud at all,
he just want our lives secured,
many times, we taking it for granted
and look back please, you won't believe how many lives have lost,
if you think this is funny, so be it,
then read it again, you will get what i meant.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

好书

看完了余华的《许三观卖血记》。

和他的《活着》一样,看了有那么点鼻酸。

说不上感人肺腑,也没有华丽的词藻,仅仅是简单的文字叙述,用了黑色幽默的口吻,以至于笑过之后总是发现眼角潮湿。

熬下去,熬下去才可以活着;即使吞下肚的水是苦的,也要在喉咙里发出欢悦的声响;即使他人的眼角充满鄙视,也要拍拍自己的胸脯说:“i do what i like, i like what i do”;即使摔得灰头土脸,也要庆幸自己正在经历别人所没能经历的;如此,才能熬下去。

“回忆过去的生活,无异于再活一次” - 马提亚尔