i feel it this way

why you buy that pair of shoes with a skull printed on it? she asked, and i answered, 'cause i m sick and tired of my past, that very much haunts me even at this moment...

it's the skull print of Che Guevara...i want to differentiate myself from the what i was, i need a revolution in mind, i can put myself in meditation for hours, contemplating about past and future, and just trying to get away from the present in an awefully messed up state of mind, i cant keep things in place, and i m stumbling on my pace, yea, you are right, it's just as fuck'd up as usual..what is it meant to be me? reincarnation of failure? and what is it meant to be you? eternity of triumph? fuck it, circle leads to nowhere...i m sorry if i cant be sweet, it's not my expertise and i wont wrap my tongue with honey; give me a hug, warm me up from inside when i cant pretend to be happy, when i fail to camouflage my saddness; make all that sacrifice worthy i wanted, though often i heard it's ok...Captain Miller said "earn it" twice before his death, the most powerful line that i remembered this far in all the films i've watched, sometimes when i infer it to my life, i cant help but start wondering what have i earned...gy, i think you have just thought too much in redundancy, go, just go and love like you've never loved before

and i need to build up my alamo..