wat m i doing?

only the second week of the new semester, i skipped sch today, congrats to me...

well, not exactly i skipped the whole day, since no lab and tutorials all that, lecture for today only starts at 4pm..after lunch, a short nap is the option since i've got quite a lot of disposable time..but timing went wrong(and i forgot to set the alarm), i only woke up at 345pm, thking there's no possiblity that i gonna make it for the lecture, i stayed on my bed for another 10 mins be4 i got up to my feet.

ok, fine, i m juz trying to make up some excuses for skipping, but it did make me feel guility. i've not been doing wat i m supposed to do, while others've been working hard towards their goals. i m drifting ard like a homeless kid, not knowing how to get the hell out of that circle. all i can do now is to keep my faith strong in God, the path maybe blurry, as long as i could see the light at the other end, i will keep my pace up despite all the pain. i wan to redeem my sins, i wan to follow God to his paradise, not an easy task. asking myself wat have i done to make myself less sinful, only realising that i so ashamed to face up to that, escaping seems to be the solution, but it's not the answer. i know that. in His divine name, forgive me..